my heart like no feeling....grandpa, u hapi there??

today is Fri...8.8.08....10.38pm...i think u al should watching the olympic nw ritez??erm, 1 week more din write blog le...bcoz of busying wf my grandpa funeral...last thursday nitez, we al was rush bk to ipoh to visit my grandpa bcoz doctor told us my grandpa will leave us soon..den after class, we faster pack al the things, dat day xtuali my bf come n meet me, but so bad he jz came a while den hv to leave n bk his home coz we hv to bk ipoh...my bro fetch me,teng(cousin sis) n my younger bro n mei(cousin sis) bk ipoh...we straight away go hospital...wen we saw our grandpa, we jz cry, our heart is damn pain, we noe he is very suffer of fixing a lot of thing in his body....he jz in coma n never open his eye n talk to us...the next day we visit him again, he stil the same, we talk to him but he nvr gv us response...al this thing is too sudenli 4 us...we reali shock wen c my granpa like dis...he is such a healthy person ...y?? y??y he wil bcome like dis??al my cousin sis n bro n al my uncle n aunty from outstation oso come bk to c my grandpa..we talk to him , help him massage...but he oso nvr open his eye....sat is stil the same....den my daddy say wait until sunday, if granpa cant wake up den jz tk him home n ....let him slowli leave us...we understand al dis...coz we oso dun wan to c him suffer like dis...sunday morning, he stil like dat, stil in coma...so we jz tk him bk home..my dad n the nurse oso keep crying wen on the way tk him bk home..wen we al stand beside him, the nurse pull out the oxygen equipment from his lung... dat time we jz keep crying... although we dun wan c him suffer, but we prefer more he dun leave us...but no choice....we hv to accept n do so..we can fel grandpa stil hv a very little breathing after pull out the thing...we hold his hand n talk to him....2 drop of tears came out from my granpa's eye...we cry louder n louder like lost control edi...we hold his hand can fel his hand very cool....after dat my dad ask doctor come n check izit he edi pass away..yes..he edi leave us at 11am....our heart very pain...very sad...1 word oso din talk to us den leave us...we attend the funeral for 3 days...we pray 4 him...cry n pray...reali tired..dun hv enough sleep...cant slep...wen close up eye den think of my grandpa...many thing in my mind...i dunno how to write edi...but i reali hope al of u can do wat grandpa hope u al wil do...dun let him woli...grandpa, u dun woli...we will tc grandma...i hope she oso dun think bk al dis thing again...wen i saw her cry, my heart oso fel pain..she keep on look at my granpa pic n ask y u nvr say 1 word den leave us...i noe grandma is freaking sad...grandpa, u can listen wat we say here??dun woli us...we wil tc ourself...u oso mz stay peace in heaven...we wil mis u n love u 4ver...n thx sis...al dis thing i jz tel u onli...dis few day i very suffer, wana cry but cant cry out...wen u cal me dis afternoon, i reali cant tahan...tears keep out...n soli to make u al fel woli...dun woli...i am ok nw...mayb jz ned sum time to accept dis n release al the stress ...n thx my honey oso...i noe u been trying to make me hapi...u been ask me to talk to u...but reali soli i din tel u al my feeling...but u r the 1st person let me fel relax n let the tears come out...n oso thx al my fren...thx 4 u al concern...soli to make u al woli...i wil b strong!!  ok la...gd9,everyone...muackz...